boredom

I was having a light discussion with friends today after iftar when the topic of boredom came up: I said that I never feel bored, I always have something to do or to think about. So my friend asked me: do you think a lot?

Pause.

-Do I think a lot? Hummm, do I think a lot...
- I mean do you always think about work, even when you leave the office?

I didn't know what to answer, when at work, I think about work and other stuff, and since the work load is a bit light I took a couple of freelancing projects that keep me busy, I also manage my MBA while at work, and I plan my vacations. After hours I still work, isn't it what everybody in Dubai does? I own my time, so I can spend it the way I want...

Back to the question, do I think a lot??

I don't know. I do have some moments when my brain switches off and I slide into a different level of existence. Genny says this is Teta meditation and I do it naturally. Well spotted, I think I do meditate unintentionally, and I guess it runs in the family, my dad has it.
But what makes my brain force me into this state of compulsory break? Is it the overload?

A man that I worshiped once told me that I over think and I have to get off thinking. Since I was a loyal subject, I took his advice religiously...
I don't know if I eventually got off thinking or am I still on the analytical roller-coaster, what I know for sure is I stopped worshiping, I stopped worshiping god, I stopped family and I stopped worshiping him.

I now enjoy the tantalizing concept of perfection, I enjoy beauty and I enjoy men.

Ramadan Kareem